A deployment is a workaholic’s dream: lots of work, long hours and not much else to do. My daily routine consists of waking up, working out, breakfast, working, working out, lunch, working, dinner, working and then sleeping.
Here are my top 10 confessions as a workaholic:
1. I cannot stand the thought of a co-worker, colleague, supervisor or opposing counsel working harder, longer or more than me. It drives me to push myself more.
2. I enjoy working late at night because there are few interruptions and distractions, so I am able to get in a zone and be productive.
3. I also enjoy waking up early in the morning before the sun comes up to go for a run or other workout. I feel better about my day when I wake up early and am prepared for the day before it begins for everyone else.
4. Unfortunately, the consequences of waking up early and working late means that I sacrifice my sleep time. I understand the health benefits of sleep, so I constantly struggle with whether to wake up early or work late.
5. I get a natural high from productivity, so on days I am being productive, I am on cloud nine. On days where it feels like everything is taking longer than it should, then I can feel myself becoming frustrated and short-tempered, even if I don’t outwardly express it.
6. I am so exhausted at the end of the day that when my head hits the pillow, I am asleep. Unfortunately, it is difficult to relax, because relaxing almost always equates to instant sleep. (Good luck keeping me awake through a movie!)
7. I always feel like I can do more than what I am presently accomplishing. I constantly feel the need to work harder or find ways I can do more work in less time.
8. I sometimes equate my work-life to running on a treadmill. I am always trying to stay ahead so I don’t fall behind, but I feel like the work never ends. It just keeps going.
9. That moment I am caught up on all my work and feel lost, because I am not sure what to do next because I am always used to something needing to be done next.
10. I can’t go on vacation without spending time at night working after everyone else goes to sleep, so as to not take away from the “vacation experience” for others.
I find satisfaction in life from the work that I do. I find it fulfilling and meaningful to me. I take pride in my work, and I want it to reflect well on me.
I just have to remember and remind myself that there is more to life than working.